Soul Purpose vs Innate Wisdom

1. Being a loving, nurturing, caring Mother is MY PURPOSE.

2. Sharing my Psychic, Medium abilities is my INNATE WISDOM.

I struggled with the life-work balance for a long time.

I have a self identity that has been in conflict with my heart for a long time.
They've had many battles.
The self identity that I am to build an empire, share my gifts with the world, awaken the masses, help heal the world.
The self identity couldn't just do that step by step, person by person.
She kept getting swept away in the big, big energy of mass impact.
The chase.
The need. The want but also the knowing that I am capable.

However......

I chose to become a Mother.
Three times in fact.

My heart
My children

My self identity struggled with the deep call to flip the switch and break unhealthy cycles for them and for me.
My call to love the children unconditionally, care for them, embrace them, nurture them, raise children that didn't need to heal from their childhood.
Re-parent myself, grow, heal, learn, embrace, connect, detach or at least find balance within the above identity and at the same time, guide 3 beautiful BEings through their journey of loving themselves, sharing the knowledge and wisdom that I have and also guiding them to trust themselves, listen to themselves and believe themselves.

Creating balance
Feeling the calling to be both Mother and share my Psychic Medium abilities through sessions and writing.

How do I do all of that AND be the primary carer AND the main income provider?
The one that puts the food on the table and keeps the roof over their head but also cooks the food and cleans the home that is the roof over their head.

How do I do all of this?

When I've been in the energy and the mindset to be a present and connected Mum, I've been called to work.

When I've been in the energy and mindset to work and share my abilities, the children have needed me.

It has been a balancing act for years.
Not all done with smiles and grace, I can assure you.

I also don't just do those things. I also have friends, passion for travel, exercise and have people messaging me, needing guidance outside of my business hours.
Plus, wanting to find and connect with a partner.

I love my life. I truly do. I have an amazing life. This isn't a whinge. I'm.not complaining. In fact, I am elated just writing this and how special my journey is.

I'm sharing my Ace of Swords moment with you. My epiphany moment today.

When I got back to Cairns after a year in Tasmania, my main aim and goal was to create balance.

Balance within that reflected on the out.

I've worked hard with my centre, my core, connecting with my energy.
Lots of self enquiry.
Witnessing my self.
Facing my self.
Seeing my self.
My whole BEing.

Acknowledging what I want to change.
Acknowledging what I needed to change.

The main truth for me is that I am extremely self judgemental.
That's been my core, toxic attachment to love, catch and release.

I needed to be forgiving to my self. I needed to find tune my Identities and my innate essence to have them working together.

I've had to tell people "not right now" and I'm going to keep doing that so I can keep fine tuning my life into balance.

After many chats (daily) with the Uni-verse that is my BEing, I cracked the code.

I see and hear my purpose this, my purpose that, prove this, prove that and it's mostly to do with work or how to create an income.

I'm a believer that the purpose of a whole BEing is to be a whole BEing.

Human BEing. BEing Human. That is the purpose.

For the sake of my mind and that self identity (and probably a few more in there ticking the boxes), I have differentiated that in this life time, in addition to just being, what my purpose is.

It is MY PURPOSE, the reason that I came to Earth, to be a loving, caring, nurturing Mother. It's my greatest reward and my greatest challenge.

My innate knowing, the thing I am natural at is connecting to Source. I got that shit down pat.
That is my Soul experience. It's what I know. That is what I bring with me, time line after time line. I don't need to learn how to do it. I've got it sorted.

I am LEARNING how to be a Human Mother. A truly, present, connected Human Mother....while being all the other things. That is my purpose and that purpose, consciously gets everything it deserves.

It comes first every time because that is what will help me and everything around me, in me, out me, the Earth's collective, time lines, heal, grow and connect. 

 Your "purpose" does not have to be about your income, the work that you do, saving the world. My belief is that your purpose is about living, loving, learning and healing. 

 That will be in any way that you navigate your journey that challenges you to grow.